I really don't know where to begin. So far this year has been throwing curve balls at me in every direction possible.
The last blog I wrote was about manifestation and creating the dreams you want. I still believe you can manifest and create your dreams; however, not sure where I personally went wrong on this one. Well, needless to say, I manifested the van I wanted and also got it converted. I manifested setting out on an amazing journey traveling around the country sharing my Sound Meditation with others. I wanted this all to happen so badly, that I think I stopped listening to my inner voice. The van wound up having a ton of issues and only got me to Knoxville, Tennessee. Oh, life on life terms!
On a positive note, I had an enormous amount of support and love by my side which made it easier to say, "okay, let's try this again at a later time, it's not for now." So, I decided my next move was to move to Savannah, Ga with my boyfriend. My next path in life, a new journey to grow with the person I fell in love with and continue this life together in a new place. Little did I know, life was about to throw me another curve ball, right in the heart.
Life had a different plan for me.
During my time down there I found out my now ex-boyfriend had multiple physical and emotional relationship with other women while he was with me. As you can believe I was devastated and I am still going through the emotional pain of healing. I am beyond hurt and learning again how to truly love myself. I called him my other half, because I felt so connected when I was with him. He filled me up with this love I was waiting for, it was like I was missing something inside. Based on that, I notice now that I was regressing not progressing in my growth. I needed this love from another person. When I think about it now, I need to love myself wholeheartedly first and not rely on someone else to fill that need. This is something that I am working on and will continue to do so and when I'm ready I will be able to attract a person who already loves themselves as well and there will be no codependency.
“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.” - Buddha
By focusing on your well-being and giving yourself daily self-love, this creates a strength within you, so that you're able to give love and receive love without attachments. I didn't realize it when I was was in it, however I stopped giving myself self love during this relationship, because I thought I was complete with him by my side. Even though this was heartbreaking, no love is ever lost and every person we meet in life shows us a beautiful lesson for growth. We just have to be open to these growth moments.
Are you experiencing any pain at this moment? Love, loss, physical pain, emotional pain, and/or low self-esteem?
How do you heal? What steps do you take to show yourself self-love?
I am creating a platform on Instagram (@peacefully_rooted) called
FEEL it, to FREE it
It's a platform to go to listen to other people's stories and to learn how other's heal. I want to create a community of healers! I believe when we share our emotional pain it can be one way to start the process of healing. By sharing our stories we now open the door to connect with one another on a deeper level and we can begin to create and share healthy ways to heal. We don't have to do it alone!
Let's come together and FEEL our emotions and let's FREE them in healthy ways.
I am ready to love myself unconditional and it's time for me to SHINE BRIGHT!
I look forward to meeting you and hearing your stories and ways that you have learned to heal your emotional pain too!
If you like to be part of this healing community you please following my Instagram page to get updates AND submit a video about your story and what tools you use to help heal!
Please email to Kaitlyn@peacefullyrooted.com
Since the last time I wrote, I have been on some amazing adventures! Life always keeps moving, even when you want to slow it down.
Just to recap: my last blog was about the struggles with dating in 2017. I was so hyper focused on finding that perfect person, that I was actually attracting all the wrong people for me. I am beyond grateful to say that a little less than a year after I wrote that blog, I met and have been dating the most incredible man!
So that being said, 2018 has had it moments. From finding my person, graduating massage school, growing my sound healing practice, and now, to my biggest journey of them all, I will be leaving March 1st 2019 to travel around the United States in a van! (See below for a peek at the conversion). I have been manifesting this dream for the past two years!
If you have been to one of my meditations, you know I love to spread the love and share sweaty hugs at the end of them! From that, and meeting such wonderful humans, this idea came to my head: spread love through sound on a wider scale!!
My desire is to travel and spread love through sound meditation, massage, and qigong. Each one of these healing modalities has a vibration that speaks to our body/soul connection.
We all need to feel connected and loved. I believe it's one of the most important aspects of our survival.
That brings me to two months ago when I finally bought a van and began the process of building it. My new home is a 1991 Dodge Ram.
This journey is just the beginning and it started with a thought. This sounds simple, but it can be very challenging to keep a thought alive if you don't bring actions to your thoughts.
Thoughts + Actions = Manifestation!
One of my favorite stories about manifestation is that before Jim Carrey was a famous actor, he wrote himself a $10 million dollar check for “acting services rendered” and dated it for Thanksgiving 1995. Just before that day, he found out he was going to make $10 million dollars for the movie “Dumb and Dumber.”
What you think, you give power. Our thoughts are vibrations, and my thought was a big one that needed time to evolve. The universe knows when the time is right. You just have to be patient. Believe and your dreams really can come true.
How I manifested my Van:
1. I wrote my intention down on a piece of paper, and taped it to my mirror
“I have my converted van”
2. I talked about my van constantly
3. I let go of any fears of it not happening
4. I believed in the power of positive thinking
Thank you for reading and I hope I ignited the power of believing in how a simple thought can bring your desires to life!
Look out for my next blog – can't wait to share with you what I have planned for my "Spread The Love With Sound Across the US" journey
and who my special traveling companion!!
"Oftentimes, in order to open ourselves up to that deep, enriching love, we need to be broken apart first. After all, there isn’t any way to know what love is until we can truly understand what it isn’t."- Kate Ross (Elephant Journal)
There is an abundance of energy in the Universe this month. I am not an astrologist; however, I can feel my body, mind, and soul being deeply affected by it. Lately, I have been extremely tired, overthinking, having vivid dreams, and most of all having this desire to setting down and fall in love.
This week started the Summer Solstice on 21st and the Super New Moon was yesterday! This combination of solar and lunar energy enhances the ‘Light’ energy from the sun. This energy represents our ‘outer-world,’ our identity, our personality, and our ego. It shows us how we can ‘shine our light’ out into the world, and offers us strength, courage, and illuminated insight of our soul.